Saturday, December 29, 2012

This Old House

Well another Christmas vacation has come and gone. Tomorrow Bryan and I will head back to Tennessee, back to work. I always find it hard to leave home knowing that I won't be back for another six months to a year. Between this visit and the last my Boppa and Nanna (grandparents) moved to a new house and my parents moved into their house so this is where I have been for the past two weeks. I've been visiting this house for twenty-one years and I LOVE this house. Every time I walk up the stairs my heart smiles. I cant explain it but the front door makes this strange sound when it's opened and there's a few places in the house that creak as you walk over them. There's a room in the house with windows from the floor to the ceiling and the ceiling is so high that it's allowed us to have a nine foot Christmas tree for the past two years! The front of the house looks out to the river and when we were kids, on the way into town my parents would drop us kids off and we would run over the sand dunes that separate the house from that river and my parents would meet us on the other side and we would all go inside together to see Boppa and Nanna! I'm going to have a hard time leaving this time because I don't know the next time that I will be back. Because I am a child living in an adults body these things are always hard for me. So as I swallow this lump in my throat I have to remember that God puts people in our lives and not objects. You know in the sun room, Boppa used to sit in this black leather chair and do crossword puzzles. I haven't seen that chair in years but he still does those puzzle games. My mother is still the most amazing cook no matter whose stove she's cooking on and Hayden can still make me pee my pants laughing weather we are sitting in the family room at home or a random hotel room. I can still share old memories and talk about present life with my dad on a long walk outside and Andrew can still make me smile all the way from afghanistan. I make new memories everyday with Bryan in my little apartment in Tennessee. I love that house but I love the people inside that house even more and I can feel their love for me a thousand miles away. I thank God for these people, for the memories that we made together inside that house, for the memories made outside that house, and the memories TO COME!

God bless you all as you make your own memories in this new year :)

Friday, December 28, 2012

I'm back!!!

Hey everyone! I'm going to pick up this old blog, dust it off, and start writing on a regular basis again! Here's a quick update:
- I'm Married!!! Yes, MARRIED!! Never thought I would say that at age 21 but I am :) to the most handsome, PATIENT (I emphasize the word patient because its my favorite quality that he holds. God knew I was going to NEED a patient man and he pulled through!), sweet, kind, and strong man that I've ever laid eyes on. I love him with my whole heart. He's my best friend!
- We tied the knot in a beautiful, charming little Church in Clarksville, Tennessee on July 28th 2012. It was small (no more than fifty guests) but it was my dream wedding. We had a lovely reception out at a little cabin with a southern style lunch complete with lemonade and fireflies out on the lawn. Sigh I wish I could go back ;)
- I'm still in the army (tired sigh) only two years left! I'm working on my degree in psychology and my husband and I are planning for my future as I make the transition from Soldier to civilian (job wise) time flies so we need a job plan! Bryan however plans to stay in longer which has been discussed and is what we both want. Better him than me haha ;) but on a real note I think it's in Gods plans for right now and when we feel the time is right he will get out too.
- Last but not least before the picture overload... I'm pregnant!!!! Ahhhhhh!!! So soon after our marriage but we couldn't be happier :D I am almost four months along already. It seems like I just found out yesterday! It's been a ride so far I've suffered from pretty bad morning sickness and I'm slowly getting bigger and bigger but when I stop and think that there is life inside me I just can't help but smile. God is good isn't he? What a miracle babies are. I can't wait to meet our little sweet pea!

The invitations!

I searched and searched for the perfect Church to get married in and it proved to be a difficult task for a couple of reasons. One because Bryan and I are already members of a Church a lot of Churches only accept members and two my Dad married us so some Churches wanted their pastor to do it. Somehow I stumbled upon this Beauty built in 1920! The staff was so kind! I didn't have any problems I owe them a huge thanks!

My photographer had me get dressed alone with my mother and then had my bridesmaids and maid of honor all come in and line up with their backs facing me and then all at once had them turn around. This was their first reaction. Don't I have a pretty wedding party?

This is a handkerchief I made for my dad. I just embroidered it the best I could. Looking back I'm so glad I did this. I always, always want my dad to know how SPECIAL he is to me!

Three married women and two to rightfully look up to! My mom and dad have been married for 25 years and my boppa and nanna have been married for 51 years!

For my guest book I put out scrapbooking paper and had our guests write a little something on them and then pin them on some twine using cloths pins. I loves this idea. They are now in a cute little picture book.

My favorite, favorite picture of all time! I am absolutely the happiest girl alive and this picture shows it. I'm blessed. I have no idea why but without a doubt, I am.

* ps. My photographer... Jaymie Jacobson. She was amazing. Is amazing. I could never giver her enough thanks!

Saturday, March 10, 2012


Last Sunday they showed this skit at Church. ive seen the same one a few years ago but i forgot how absolutely powerful it is. it shows us that Christs love for us is unbreakable. he follows us wherever we go, waiting for us to come back to him. through the Lord we are safe, nothing can come against us. just remember that. no matter what you are going through he is RIGHT there waiting to save you. he will never give up on us. so let us not give up on him.

OK OK so maybe its just me but i cant figure out how to put the link on here so if you are interested go to youtube and type in EVERYTHING SKIT and there will be a bunch of different videos you can choose from. but watch it...its powerful.

Friday, March 9, 2012

unconditional love

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart) i am never without it (anywhere i go you go, my dear;and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)

i fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true) and its you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you.

here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of the tree called life which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide) and this is the wonder thats keeping the stars apart.

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

e.e. cummmings

Saturday, March 3, 2012

God knows we're worth it.

Last week my fiance left for Afghanistan and I have been having kind of a hard time with it. We have been together now for almost nine months and the longest we have gone without talking to eachother is maybe about five hours..we are always together, we're best friends. The night before he left he really did something that just melted my heart. He took me out to the river walk where we got engaged and he put "I wont give up" by Jason Meraz (our song) and we danced. Ive always known how much I loved him but in that moment I fell even more completely in love with him. He had such a kind heart and is so faithful to me and my needs. I know that during this next year I am going to be ok. Ive been praying every day for God to give me peace and he has already been answering my prayers. I worry less and less each day. God has also provided so many oportunites for the two of us to talk on the phone and skype. More so than I thought would be possible for the first few months. God handpicked us for one another and through his grace he is going to get us through this next year.

When I look into your eyes it's like watching the night sky or a beautiful sunrise there's so much they hold. and just like then old start I see that you've come so far to by right where you are how old is your soul?

I won't give up on us even if the skies get rough I'm giving you all my love I'm still looking up.

and when you're needing your space to do some navigating I'll be here patiently waiting to see what you find.

'Cause even the stars they burn some even fall to the earth. We've got a lot to learn God knonws we're worth it. No, I won't give up.

I don't wanna be somone who walks away so easily I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make. Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use the tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stake and in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend for us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn. We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not and who I am.

I won't give up on us even if the skies get rough I'm giving you all my love I'm still looking up



I know that lately I have been a terrible blogger but today I have some big news :)

On January 28th I got engaged!! To my best friend I might add! We have been talking about getting married for awhile now and I knew it was coming because he was gentleman enough to ask my dad first. But of course no matter how much you talk about it and how much you know it's coming nothing will beat the actual moment. So we went down to the river in Clarksville, TN and he taught me how to skip rocks and then we just walked and talked for a long while. Then he stopped me and started asking me questions like how I felt about spending forever with him. Then in these exact words he said "You are my girl but I would much rather you be my wife" and the HE GOT ON ONE KNEE and said "Gabrielle Elizabeth Schaffner will you marry me?" and pulled out a ring!! The tears started and I just cried for a little bit and he said "honey I need a verbal response" and then I let it all out. " YES of course YES YES YES!!"

So anyways I am now an engeged woman and I am loving it. I am so so in LOVE with Bryan and I cant wait to marry him. In a perfect world we would be getting married in just a few months but we are both service members and Bryan was just deployed to Afghanistan on the 24th of February for a year. So of course I will be back here waiting for his return and there will be lots of wedding planning while I wait :)

Heres the ring guys in all its beauty :) I sure am blessed!!!